Be Kind

Even though I have been through and continue to go through some pain in the ass shit, literally, I have taken a step back recently to count my blessings.  People all around us are suffering and the truth is that we never really know what anyone is going through. When you're going through shit, don't you put on a brave face? Don't you post significantly more positive posts on social media than posts about real life struggles? 

It's easy to be more absorbed in your own problems than in other people's issues. After all, you are the protagonist of your troubles. If you don't attend to your own conflicts in life, who will? Can anyone honestly understand what you're going through?  This very notion should be the principle in which we empathize with others. Somehow the isolation of suffering is what can connect us to each other.

I'm sure you know the wish I would wish if I had one wish to wish: I wish the world would be freed from its suffering. Be kind; be the reason someone else believes there is good in this world.

Confession Time

I'm sitting in bed as I type this. The catch is that I'm supposed to be at UCF for my class that started at 2pm. I wish I could say this is the first time I've taken off work to go to school only to skip class so that I can go home to rest instead.  The thing is...I feel good, no pain, regular poop, and my energy is better than it's been in months. Why did I skip school today with the final exam tomorrow?  I don't have an excuse or rational explanation other than I didn't want to go to class. What's up with that? Depression? Grief?

I was supposed  to go parasailing with my friend, Gabriel, this Saturday, but his babysitter cancelled and he in turn cancelled our parasailing plans. Fret not, I'll be going parasailing with my sister, Kim, instead. Times like these make me thankful I don't have any kids. Don't get me wrong, I understand putting family and kids first. I'm just not at the stage in my life where I want to put others before myself. I don't typically have that kind of energy and I have too much I want to accomplish before I'll be ready for that. I totally confess that I don't know if I'll ever be ready to constantly put others first. Does this make me a bad person?